On hiatus here. find me at my tumblr. http://hammy-mah.tumblr.com. Be back after the exams lovelies.
Friday, August 20, 2010 4:36 PM
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010 12:15 PM
i miss this. :(
its been awhile. dont think i will be updating much these days. exams are around the corner and i have yet to sit down and study my hearts out. gotta start the momentum before its too late. anyways, i experienced a temporary loss of weight for the first few days of fasting. was telling syahid the other day, if i can lose 2kg in 4days, by the time i complete 1 month of fasting, i will look like a complete anorexic girl! haha. but thats why i say 'temporary' loss of weight. wait till raya comes. double the size, double the nice. ;)
i finally satisfy my cravings for murtabak yesterday evening when syahid brought me to zam zam to break our fast. and they were giving free kathira drinks and dates. (even though their dates look so phatetic) mama is making more kueh tat today since her friend is coming over to help. yummy. :D these are parts of ramadhan i love the most. baking of kuehs, breaking fast as a family and with friends be it outside or at the comfort of your own home, shopping for raya neccesities and also, listening to hari raya songs being played on the radio. weeeeeeeeeeeee!
Saturday, August 14, 2010 10:43 AM
Having to witness a delivery yesterday morning i realise that giving birth is not a matter of buying and selling nor trading. Its a matter of fighting between life and death of 2 souls. A mother struggling for her own and for her baby to be introduced into the world. The joy of hearing your own baby’s first cry and a proud daddy who had his first touch of being of his own blood, it was just overwhelming. I had no control but to drop a tear or two. But as i stood there watching with blood endlessly gushing from the mother’s wound, my world suddenly took a spin around me. My throat became so tight and cold sweats start trickling down my forehead. At that instance, i knew i couldn’t take it any longer. I decided to take a break from the scene and get hold of myself outside.
Nonetheless, it was such a great once in a lifetime experience for me. (:
Wednesday, August 11, 2010 9:27 PM
i survived the first day of fasting. yay. not so much of a big deal actually. was just feeling a little too tired and sleepy after work today. headed to bed the moment i reached home. with the nice weather outside and my limbs still kinda frozen from the air con at work and throughout the way home, i never felt so good hugging my bolster and having my favourite blanket covering me to sleep. i wouldnt have woke up on time for break-fast if not for syahid's call. by the time i woke up, it was already 7pm. perangai macam ______. haha. my mum was so nice not to wake me up to help her out in the kitchen. she knew i was too exhausted to even open my eyes.
i'm enjoying every single bit of my posting now. was posted to the nursery today and oh mee gosh! there were so many babies! i bathe them babies, fed them, change their diapers and time flies when you're in the nursery. now i cant wait to have one of my own. :DDD but my mum told me this, "wait till you're posted to the labour ward, you will think twice of having a baby" :O and i'm going there on friday. i hope there'll be some cases there. or else i will froze to boredom in that chilly labour ward.
i shall turn in early tonight cos tmr will be another day. (:
Friday, August 06, 2010 9:19 PM
i came to school for the sake of sitting in for pharmaco tutorial. i already missed health psycho's tutorial an hour earlier since i was too lazy to get ready for school. was lazing around in bed contemplating with syahid if i should go to school or not. but since theres this makan makan session with out mentor, ms rosy in the afternoon, i made up my mind to get my ass to school. and little did i know, the class actually got for me a cake for my (belated) birthday. awwwww. :) how sweeeeeeeeeet. and look at what they did to me in that picture above. haha. thank you NR0918, much love. (: i should've just brought my camera mann. its the last day of school! before more attachments and exams that is. -___- its already the end of semester 1. how fast time flies.
went for a karaoke session with shahidah and syahid in the evening with ina joining us soon after. sumpah i have to listen to more malay songs. half the time, i was clueless on what songs they were singing. videos will be uploaded at facebook. you can see how syahid melalak-lalak like what like that. and the connection iz getting on my nerves i tell youuuuuuuuuuuu. zzzzzzzz
Thursday, August 05, 2010 9:59 PM
Thank you for all the 100 over birthday wishes over at my wall at facebook, never ending birthday SMS-es and also to nadirah and saif who made the effort to sing me a birthday song over the phone. even though they had to leave me several miss calls before i got back to them cos i was out having dinner. Even though it was just like any other day, i'm satisfied i get to spend this day with loved ones. "A year Older, A year Wiser" 18 is just a number, you dont get to change overnight like some superhero movie. and yes, even though its hard, i realise who my true friends are. maybe i'm too forgiving, or maybe i just dont see myself as getting hurt over and over again in silence. i shall not touch that now to ruin the end of my day. once again, thank you all. (:
Monday, August 02, 2010 9:02 PM
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?
Friday, July 30, 2010 7:30 PM
"it's like a missing star
that's always been up in your sky
it's like the rainbow never comes after the rain
it's like the sun never rises in every of your mornings"
Thursday, July 29, 2010 8:30 PM
I remember this one time, we made plans to go to the gym. you were on your way and you called to tell me you forgot to bring your gym shoes. i was so mad but since we both were already on our way, theres nothing much we can do about it. but you, knowing how i would sulk cos i think the idea of running those treadmills alone stinks, went all the way back home without telling me just to get your pair of shoes. when i called demanding to know why you took so long to reach, you told me you're in the cab from home, on the way to meet me. i felt so damn guilty at that point of time. we met, you didnt give me the "i did this all for you look and you have to appreciate me" look. instead, you just planted a kiss on my cheek and bring me to get some food cos you didnt want me to starve. (:
i remember when i had one of those rough times, i couldnt sleep almost the whole night. you were so concerned, you accompanied me on the phone and when i cried so badly, you cried along with me. that just show how much you feel me. you didnt ask me me to stop talking, instead, you listen to me the whole night. i wanted to meet you the next day so badly. even though you had school, you came all the way down to YCK to meet me. you asked if i felt alot better and gave me a warm hug. i cried some more on your shoulder and you wiped away my tears with your bare fingers and told me its going to be alright. spending time with you that day, you made me laugh, you made me smile, you made me forget the problems i was facing for awhile.
i remember when you were still working. i didnt like you being in that company (i shall not mention any names) cos you were always home late. there was one time when i got so mad and didnt allow you to have supper with your colleagues. and when i'm mad, you know my ways. i'll switch of my phone and go to sleep. soon, i hear the home phone ringing. my mum picked it up and you told my mum to inform me that you're on your way home and cancelled the plans with your colleagues. my mum told you i was already asleep. but truth is, i wasnt.
i remember when we had one of those arguements over the phone bout silly little things. as usual, i always want to put down the phone but you wont give up trying to get back to me. your persistence pissed me even more and we ended up shouting and screaming at each other. my house was undergoing a little construction and it was messy and dusty everywhere. knowing that i had to clean my house alone since my parents was away, you came over and without saying much, you vacuumed and mopped the floor, wipe and rearrange back the furnitures with me. and again, you kissed me and whispered to my ear how sorry you were.
Theres no words to describe how much you care for me, all those effort to keep this relationship going, all those times you put up with my attitude. i would like to say thank you, my love. Happy 13th. (:
